Don't Close Your Eyes

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CRYSTAL is thankful to have finally graduated from the Raffles family in 2009.
She is not so ready to embark on the new phase of her life and she still enjoying bumming around.
If being a slacker is an occupation, she'd be a millionaire(:

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I so understand kinematics lor.
Which is why i'm here slacking my butt off.

oh like I care if the ball bounces in a negative or positive velocity, at an increasingly decreasing speed with xx displacement? and the graphs DRIVE ME INSANE. oh god.

i'm going to flunk everything. i barely passed social studies. jamsine constant groans about SS is not helping things. trigonometry? 0.o OH NO. i just remembered the PT. damn.

i feel like puking now. maybe i ate too much chocolate 0.o

~~but nvm! AMAZING RACE LATER WHEE!~~

number of days until doom= 1 (and counting)

OMG I AM PISSED WITH

My mum
My brother

My mum denied having said "yes" when i told her i wanted to pierce another hole in my ear. i asked her ages ago and she said YES. omg, i bet she wasnt even listening to me! so today when i reminded her again, she stared at me and thought i was crazy. the way she was going on, you'd think im planning to have piercings in my belly button, cartilage, eyebrow, tongue. its only another TEENY HOLE. goodness. she thinks it is gross and ahlian, and probably thinks i'm gg to turn into one. -.-

the my stupid brother HAS to join in the conversation although he has no idea what we were arguing about. PIG lah he, what did i do to have such a #$%^&*( brother~ (oh and he had the MOST pinchable cheeks last time. gee i wondered what happened)

back to my mum. and she went off saying how UNPROFESSIONAL i'll look when im in bussiness suits next time or smth. (i BET she sneaked a look into my RGS diary -.-) and whoever siad im going to become a bussiness woman! come to think of it, i'll be lucky if i manage to graduate at the state im going.

maybe i don't want another earhole anymore 0.o BUT IT'S COOL, NO?

ohmygosh.

please don't let me fail my chinese essay tomorrow. I'm trying to study, but i don't know WHAT to study. Yeah, i'm desperate enough to try to study for an essay- wow.

Oh actually I wouldn't have bothered if my teacher didn't flunk my FA! whopping 33 over 70. is that GOOD or what. i didn't know i was capable of that standard. and the thing is, i don't even know where i went wrong -__- FA is with the teacher, so i'm left hanging in the air, waiting for doomsday to arrive tmr while I clutch my chinese paper, writing rubbish.

PLEASE DON'T LET ME FAIL PLEASE DON'T LET ME FAIL PLEASE DON'T LET ME FAIL.

seriously? I am in doubt as to whether I'm ever going to pass my hcl o levels next year, looking at the state of my pathetic chinese. and to think i used to get an average of 36/40 in primary school.

GEE, I WONDER WHAT HAPPENED 0.o

UPDATED: oh WHATEVER man, i'm so gonna fail my essay. my fate is sealed. UGHH.

I just got this in my email. thought i'd share it (:

After 21 years of marriage, I discovered a new way of keeping alive the spark of love.

A little while ago I had started to go out with another woman. It was really my wife's idea.

"I know that you love her," she said one day, taking me by surprise.

"But I love YOU," I protested.

"I know, but you also love her."

The other woman that my wife wanted me to visit was my mother, who has been a widow for 19 years, but the demands of my work and my three children had made it possible to visit her only occasionally. That night I called to invite her to go out for dinner and a movie.

"What's wrong, are you well?" she asked.

My mother is the type of woman who suspects that a late night call or a surprise invitation is a sign of bad news.

"I thought that it would be pleasant to pass some time with you," I responded. " Just the two of us."

She thought about it for a moment then said "I would like that very much."

That Friday after work, as I drove over to pick her up I was a bit nervous. When I arrived at her house, I noticed that she, too, seemed to be nervous about our date. She waited in the door with her coat on. She had curled her hair and was wearing the dress that she had worn to celebrate her last wedding anniversary. He smiled from a face that was as radiant as an angel's.

"I told my friends that I was going to go out with my son, and they were impressed," she said, as she got into the car. "They can't wait to hear about our meeting".

We went to a restaurant that, although not elegant, was very nice and cozy. My mother took my arm as if she were the First Lady. After we sat down, I had to read the menu to her. Her eyes could only read large print. Half way through the entree, I lifted my eyes and saw Mom sitting there staring at me. A nostalgic smile was on her lips.

"It was I who used to have to read the menu when you were small," she said.

"Then it's time for you to relax and let me return the favor," I responded.

During the dinner we had an agreeable conversation, nothing extraordinary - but catching up on recent events of each others lives. We talked so much that we missed the movie. As we arrived at her house later, she said "I'll go out with you again, but only if you let me invite you". I agreed.

"How was your dinner date?" asked my wife when I got home.

"Very nice. Much more so than I could have imagined," I answered.

A few days later my mother died of a massive heart attack. It happened so suddenly that I didn't have a chance to do anything for her. Some time later I received an envelope with a copy of a restaurant receipt from the same place mother and I had dined. An attached note said: "I paid this bill in advance. I was almost sure that I couldn't be there but, nevertheless, I paid for two plates - one for you and the other for your wife. You will never know what that night meant to me. I love you."

At that moment I understood the importance of saying, in time: "I LOVE YOU" and giving our loved ones the time that they deserve. Nothing in life is more important than God and your family and friends. Give them the time they deserve, because these things cannot be put off 'til "some other time". Someone once said "I've learned that, regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life. I think this is true with your in-laws, grandchildren, sisters, brothers and your friends. Anyone that means something to you-you should spend time with them and let them know how much they mean to you as often as you can.

How often did we regret that we should have shared time or make time for our loved ones but did not? Family members are like pillars to your life, giving you comfort and strength when you need it. Thus, do spare some time to show your appreciation and make time for them. They deserve to be your 1 st Priority in your time management and life. No matter how busy we can be, job will never finished, bosses will never be satisfied but your family and loved ones will always be there for you and will always have time for you.