Don't Close Your Eyes

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CRYSTAL is thankful to have finally graduated from the Raffles family in 2009.
She is not so ready to embark on the new phase of her life and she still enjoying bumming around.
If being a slacker is an occupation, she'd be a millionaire(:

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Chern Ping
Crystal Lee
Davina
Enqi
Fadhilah
Fanglin
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FourOhEight '07
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Isabel
Jasmine
Jiahui
Jolene
Maryam
Munchin' Mamas
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Natalia
Peiting
Pingfang
Ruiling
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Serene
Sheena
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__crystaaal* take this wheel. &take it from my hands. says:
LET'S GO BAG PACKING NX TIME B4 WE ARE 21

love to eat smarties! <3 says:
yar ok

i love to eat smarties! <3 says
:later u forget me liao sobs

__crystaaal* take this wheel. &take it from my hands. says:
DENDEN AFTER UNI WE TRAVEL AROUND THE WORLD!

i love to eat smarties! <3 says:
go where? cameron highlands ah

__crystaaal* take this wheel. &take it from my hands. says:
LETS GO CRUISE

i love to eat smarties! <3 says:
OOKAY! gt 13 lvl ship, like shopping mall

__crystaaal* take this wheel. &take it from my hands. says:
DEN WE CAN GO CASINO. and you will lose all your money HAHAHAH

i love to eat smarties! <3 says:
like i gt money to begin with

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LOL. anyway,
HUIWEN THIS APPLIES TO YOU TOO!

hahahaha I SHALL USE THIS AS EVIDENCE (:
REMEMBER! 3 YEARS LATER. (:

i have been in a continual state of badmood since yesterday.

actually it all started a few days ago, but it went on a high yesterday.

bio chem and physics. i have no bloody idea what is going on. i don't understand what tee is teaching about membrane and cells! The content is so jumbled and mixed i don't get what he is teaching, so i tune out. same for physics, okay i just cannot stand her voice. so i tune out too. it's not that i don't try, i LISTEN. but then halfway, i will find myself slipping away to dreamland. and one fine day, she suddenly asked me if i understood what's going on. NO I DON'T UNDERSTAND!!! but i said, yeah i think i get it. HAHA what a great liar. i shud hv said i am not following you and made her tutor me right -_-

okay, so what if im behind in everything, i can catch up during the weekends right?
yeah tried tested and i still don't understand what is going on.

and monday tuesday i hv to stay back for some congress FG which i hv absolutely no interest in. i am so going to quit next year. and that's another reason to feel pissed over. total waste of time.

because of my brother's prelims, my mum forbade the slpover. even though this may be a valid reason, i still cannot help feeling annoyed. HELLO, i have been looking forward to it since forever. sigh.

plus other stupid factors, i am not in an a freaking bad mood. evertthing is so messed up!

countdown to national day hols: 9 days.

i am SO sick of this.

do you guys feel like since you're in rgs, you do have some sort of expectation to live up to?
i do! and it sucks.

ever since i came to rgs, everyone thinks i'm this smart kid who has an IQ of 200, who scores As in every test.

HAHA i WISH. i'm going to go on probation soon okay.

and because i always bring a book to those gatherings, (yes it's super boring there, so i read.) they assume that i have impecably good english. HELLO? i got 2.8 for english okay?

i mean, yeah it's flattering that they think you have brains and whatever, but sometimes i feel overestimated. and if i end up as a rubbish cleaner, everyone will think "eh RGS leh, what happened?" and if i become this high flyer, it's like expected.

since everyone expects me to be something great, you don't want to end up as a cleaner, cos you need to live up to their expectations? yeah i know i live my own life, and if i want to become a rubbish cleaner, it's my problem. but still, since people expect great things from you, you do carry some stress don't you?

and the fact that when the school invites ppl to give thoughts, ALMOST everyone of them say something like, "I know you all from RGS, very smart..." any problem here? maybe not, but i just find it annoying somehow.

i just don't like the way society have this expectation from us.

on a lighter note...

school has been -___-'' ever since, so i need to unwind! too bad can't hv the slpoever at my place, sorry guys. SO HUIWEN, YOU ARE OUR LAST HOPE!
you know we all want and need it! (: a chance for bonding too!

remember all those fun times? YEAH BABEH. think about it (: MUSTMUSTMUST OKAY!

HUIWEN: BE HAPPY.

this is my one and only 200th post and i am dedicating this to you!

firstly, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY HUIWEN!!!
jiahui and I will get your birthday present like, SOON. hee.
too bad we couldn't celebrate this yr like last yr ):

i still remember the scene okay. it was pouring like crazy. jiahui and i had to share my lousy blue and tiny unbrella. WENT ALL THE WAY TO PLAZA SING TO GET THE STUPID CAKE (okay not quite cake, but close enough) then had to come back to heeren to meet you!

AW THE GOOD OLD TIMES ): i really miss it. i think sec 2 will be my best yr in rgs.
in addition to what jiahui says in her blog..." monday has always been the crappiest day. nth ever good happens on monday. there used to be the fk3 mon outing to look forward to, but then again, tt was in the past. : monday is always dreary ever since this year." yeah. monday rocks man. and we always went glory together too.

anyway, here are pictures dedicated to FK4! i miss huiwen jiahui sam drawing in my organiser too!!

Huiwen, lookg v happy with her cake!

WE ROCK. like totally (:

I PROCLAIM THE TRIPLE LS LOSERS!

before i continue saying why we are losers, RHD was fun! at first anyway, but it got really tiring walking in that. it will probably be first and last time i'll wear a sari. and i kind of learnt how to tie a sari alrdy! : D must have taken 100s of pics. no wonder my computer is so slow.

went out to eat with huiwen and jiahui aft that, and they came to my place to test out the rice myth for our rs project -.-

SUPPOSEDLY. but what happens? we ended up drawing the curtains, switched off all lights, switched on air con, sat their butts on my bed (nothing happened on the bed you sickos) and we watched HP4 on my com -____-''

what happens to RS? who cares. HAHAHA and huiwen was busy gushing about tomfelton, while jiahui and i recited lines from the movie together.

what losers right?

and now our RS is dead. alamak.

as usual, tons of work to do but i don't want to do them (:

anyway, i would like to say huiwen is a lucky pok. HAHA
if she called me a minute before or after, i wouldn't have been in my room to pick up the phone.

605am, i dragged myself out of bed to brush my teeth.
615am, yay i realised i hv 10 more minutes of sleep. but LO AND BEHOLD. i head my phone vibrating and flashing. like who in the world would call me at 6am in the morning??

it's wendy wong, SOS-ing, in dire need of somone to print bio pt 0.o

RS! yumin everyday stress me. her portfolio is like SO THICK. ours has 3 sheets of paper -.- wowee.

My mum isn't cooking today, so i can't test the rice sayings. DEEP DEEP DOO DOO. erps.

save us save us save us save us save us save us save us save us.

QUESTION OF THE DAY:

pirates of the CARE-REE-BEEN or pirates of the CARE-REE-BIAN?

Lisa insists its care-ree-been, while nat and i think its the latter. 0.o

I haven't been blogging the whole week because bio PT had been sapping the life out of me. especially this week.

A Timeline on our PT (:

Meeting 1 @ Claire's:
Spent a grand total of an hour deciding on the outline of the proj, and the remaining 4 hours gushing about how hot her brother was, and ogling at yearbooks. ahem. RENDANG ALERT. peiting also had the chance to catch a glimpse of claire's bro's (who was also last year's straits times holiday hunk june 05 HAHA) uhm. OUTPUT in the toilet bowl cos the flush wasn't working. It was a rather unproductive meeting(: We celebrated yuntings birthday and took pictures too!

Meeting 2 @ Claire's:
About a week later, when the after effects of claire's hot bro had worn off, we met up again, when this time was more productive! at least we spent half the time working on the structure of the ppt, and came out with the skit

Meeting 3 @ Yunting's:
After school on thursday, we went tiong bahru to buy food for our cookshow! met some friend of yunting's dad who commented on us having "an intelligent look" 0.o
spent the entire night filming in her kitchen! But before that, all of us was starving so we decided to pig out. Microwaved the spaghetti we got from 7-11. Decided to add in some packeted cheese from pizza hut. it was only after i commented on the unusually pungent smell of the cheese did peiting check the expiry date. voila. it was about 3 months expired. ewness. lucky noone ate it! so there goes the entire plate of spaghetti ):
oh i like yunting's dog! but not the part where she licks me 0.o
filming the video was extremely retarded. we took about 2 hours to wrap up a 4 minutes film -.-
pity claire couldn't make it ):

Meeting 4 @ my place:
A day before bio pt presentation we met up to cheong and rehearse. except that we didn't even get any rehearsals done -.- peiting and claire commented on how goodlooking my dad was when he was younger. i told my mum later on, and she was all "very handsome meh?? I THINK I LOOK BETTER THAN HIM OKAY." RIGHHT. hahaah the green eyed monster rears its ugly head! HAHA. Yunting couldn't make it. so it's down to the 3 of us to cheong ):

after they went home, claire peiting and i were still cheonging online. peiting and i stayed up til almost 2am.

i slept about 145 i think. 5 minutes later (or so i thought) my alarm clock rang and i was like,SHIT 6 AM ALRDY? so i got up went out and it was actually my brother's alarm for his football match -.-

BIO PT PRESENTATION DAY! everyone, mainly peiting and yunting were freaking out. yumin was kind to measure my pulse and asked me, "eh WHY U NOT SCARED ONE AH. ur pulse is like ba dum... ... ... ba dum... ... ... " i think if it went any slower i'd be dead -.-

It didn't go smoothly! first the projector wasn't working, so we had to go to the science lab -.- IMAGINE THAT. in our costume! or rather, in peitings ridiculous costume which looked like a chef ghost who died in the kitchen HAHA
and then the video wouldn't show. and when it did, no sound came out. we probably wasted like xxx precious minutes.

anyway, Mr T liked our presentation a lot!
"Outstanding! if i could gv u extra credit i would!" and he wanted us to film the entire presentation all over agn 0.o Peiting and yunting wasn't very happy though, they thought was malufying to have their faces broadcasted to the world. or school. oh come on, YOUR TICKET TO STARDOM! hahahahaha.

CL2 RULES! this bio pt was fun ((:

PS
THANKS10000X TO HUIWEN FOR COMING TO MY RESCUE AT 1AM IN THE MORNING BECAUSE I COULDN'T BURN THE BIO PT AND VIDEO FROM MY STUPID COMPUTER -.- ((((((((((((: at least she wasn't asleep yet HAHA

PPS
i realised this entry isn't v entertaining, but i just had to blog about it! hahahaah i'm in a good mood! ((: WHEE

whatever. I feel like such a loser.
i just ate ice cream and i'm feeling gravititionally challenged.
that's besides the point.
i WISH THE JUNE HOLS IS HERE AGN.
i don't care if im conkie. i NEED TO MUG. i need to read the history notes. i need to do chem. forget physics cos i can't stand physics.
thank goodness math is over.

i realised everyone's worries is connected to school in some way or another. WHY?
cos basically it all boils down to the same, if you flunk you're life will be over.
and if u tried, but still flunk, ur life will be over still.
this is so unfair. i want to just pack up my bags and go to the carribeans.
or just shift to some ulu place in africa and live among the giraffes.
anything can beat school.

totally random thought: class lizard has been back to visit. totally ew. last spotted: beside my desk.

i think lizards and I have an affinity. i stepped on one once. and found one on my bag.

WHY CAN'T THE LIZARDS LEAVE ME ALONE TOO?!

Okay, my links section will not be undergoing any reconstruction whatsoever any longer because let's face it, i will never get around doing it. Rcompiling links after i stupidly lost the entire documents of links really is dreary. so i shall dedicate to whatever i want to put into the links section! after i think of what to put in it that is XD

whew. it's 5 weeks to national day. I CAN'T WAIT. they ought to let us off on monday too.

anyway, my gpa dropped like 2 grades? i am SUCH a clairvoyant i tell you. it's getting really depressing. talk about going harvard -.- miracle if i can go anywhere with my stupid avg of about c.

right. huiwen loaned me this korean drama which she burnt, which star/planet are you from. i'm not sure about the title either. while i was putting the disc into the drive, i was wondering how come huiwen so wuliao she write the title of the drama in english, korean and chinese on about 8 of the discs.

if i were her, i would have put the '' sign. HAHA