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so sleep alone tonight
This blog belongs to CRYSTAL. It documents her musings, rants and the many anti-climatic events in her life, so read at your own risk! PS She thinks her dad reads her blog. |
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about the author
CRYSTAL is thankful to have finally graduated from the Raffles family in 2009. She is not so ready to embark on the new phase of her life and she still enjoying bumming around. If being a slacker is an occupation, she'd be a millionaire(: shoutouts
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AilinClaire Charlene Chern Ping Crystal Lee Davina Enqi Fadhilah Fanglin Fann FourOhEight '07 Huiwen Isabel Jasmine Jiahui Jolene Maryam Munchin' Mamas Natalia Natalia Peiting Pingfang Ruiling Saniah Samantha Serene Sheena Sherry Sipei Sorna Theodora The Red Jewel Yanqi Yunting Zhixian archives
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Lisa was lamenting about her NAPFA diagnostic test being tomorrow. Somehow, the msn conversation deviated and she ended up explaining physics to me. Regarding incline pull ups. Her theory: Taller people have a harder time at I-pull. ✞.·´¸.·´¨£ï§ã.·´¸.·´¨✞ says: you want me to explain the laws of physics for you? based on the momentum thingy. ✞.·´¸.·´¨£ï§ã.·´¸.·´¨✞ says: lets say the fulcrum is where your feet touches the ground. the amount of force you need to pull yourself up is your weight times the distance from the fulcrum. ✞.·´¸.·´¨£ï§ã.·´¸.·´¨✞ says: get it? ✞.·´¸.·´¨£ï§ã.·´¸.·´¨✞ says: or is it too hard? ___crystaaal* says: HAHA WHAT THE HELL. Totally man, she even managed to throw in an insult or two at me while explaining the laws of physics to me. Speaking of NAPFA Diagnostic, I actually managed to scrape a silver for my 2.4 run, despite the fact that I haven't run since 6 months ago. (Yuxuan, Floorball tryouts does not count!) At least I managed to run the 6 rounds without stopping. + 1 round of warm up. Quite an accomplishement : D Anyway, GP lessons are always amusing, thanks to Junhao. I really don't like MO though, her little quirks just annoy the hell out of me. Don't know how I can deal with GP for another 2 years. Background info on her, she's just the type of anal teacher you would expect, the kind who writes your names down if you're 5 minutes late. (Yes, she did that to half our class. Granted, it may be our fault, but she doesn' have to be so mean right!) A few days ago, she busted someone for saying "shit". Today... MO: .... CRAP. Junhao: Miss O, what does crap mean? You cannot imagine how she replied. HAHA Since we're on the subject of teachers, I like my chem teacher! : D I shall do well in Chem this year! During lab lessons we were titrating uh, something. So after the titration, the phenolphthalein will turn pink to indicate end point. Apparently someone was playing with the pink solution and not doing the practical worksheet. Chem teacher (forgot his name but he looks like a teddy bear and is tons better den MToh) says: Why are you playing with the solution! Pour it away! (person continues playing with it) Chem teacher: Is it very nice to play with?! Stop playing with it! If you like it so much, I will make you Bandung next time. You can even drink it too. HAHA Sorry but I thought it was hilariously funny : D Ok, back to physics tutorials! This is a snippet of the conversation which took place between Cheryl, Sheena and I regarding a mini assignment for GP. For the record, Sheena is in my group, while Cheryl's slacker group hasn't done anything so far. Sheena (to me): Eh Crystal, so you guys send me everything and I'll compile everything into a PowerPoint slide okay? Cheryl: HUH PowerPoint slide?! Why your group so on?!? Sheena: Okay lor. Vanguard then? We can buy from the bookshop later. Cheryl: Wah, got vanguard somemore!! Sheena: Okay fine, how about we just write a script? Cheryl: Aiyar no need script lah!! Sheena: Huh, then how?!? Me: Impromptu lor. So that's how it went from a PowerPoint slide to being impromptu for our GP presentation tomorrow : D Wish us luck lol. Yesterday's class CIP was rather fun, even though I had to wake up at an ungodly hour of 6.30am, on a Saturday no less. But it doesn't matter, all for the sake of humanity, right? Met Fann halfway on the train and we set off for We were supposed to go around those landed property to ask for dry rations, but then it wasn't very fruitful, seeing that most of them didn't answer the door lol. There was a hole in one of the plastic bags containing rice and so rice rained all over me when I tried to lift it up. (There's still rice in my shoes, I think) After Ailin left, we proceeded to the HDB estates in a lorry! : D If you closed your eyes, you would think that you were on a convertible.  Cheryl, Fann, me, Isaac on the convertible : D Cool, no? While combing the entire HDB block for dry rations, Fann entertained Brandon and I with her personal experience of nabbing a thief. More like Brandon actually, since I just heard the story already in the morning and am hearing it again. All her stories were on repeat mode. I just had the So after all the knocking of doors and repeating the same things over and over again, we rode in a van back to Kovan Hub and deposited all our boxes of food. Anyone who is claustrophobic would have died in there. Types of transportation I rode in that day: 5! : DD (6 actually, if you count Bus 11. haha Zhiying I bet you are laughing now.) Later on, met up with Claire, Yuxuan, Jasmine and Zhiying. Upon knowing that I went for class CIP earlier on, Claire exclaimed, "You went for what?? No no, wait. YOU. WENT. FOR. CLASS. CIP?? We only started on class SL in JULY last year lah! No, we didn't even do any class SL last year actually. WHY IS YOUR CLASS SO ON?!" (Oh by the way, by CLASS, I meant uh a total of 6 people. shrugs.) haha Don't ask me, ask Tedric, our super on CIP rep. Speaking of CIP rep, Sheena and Sandra totally looked at me while BenTan was asking for voltunteers for CIP rep, no way in hell am I going to volunteer man. Took neoprints (haven't done this for a long time) while waiting for Zhiying. Then we went to food scout later at Beach Road and settled on some place for Shanghai Steamboat Xian De Lai, which was quite a rip off, since the only thing I liked was the "special meatballs". After that, we still went for desert at Ji De Qu, for tangyuan LOL. Like Claire said, "my pockets are smokin' now." Oh and the shops at Beach Road have memorable names. It was then, on the 26 Jan 2008, that Munchin' Mamas was established. We intend on becoming a full fledged CCA (or SIG) next year! There's even a blog, membership cards, gmail account etc. Those who are interested in joining, email to munchinmamas@gmail.com and we will be holding a stringent selection!   (Yuxuan had terrible eyebags in the second picture thanks to Claire's lousy neoprint editing hahaha) Pictures from our first ever meeting:           PS Okay, I'm kidding about the stringent selections and becoming a full fledged SIG/CCA, in case you didn't realise. haha PPS. To PukPuk (if you ever see this, cos I hardly hear from you anymore?!) Yes, I can feel the sincerity in your apologies. I mean, you've hardly ever apologised so much to me before?! Yup, so let's all forget about everything and move on! I don't really know what to say to make you feel better but I hope this at least alleviates your guilt, since I never actually did blame you or whatever. (I was too busy mourning over my own life, you see. ) So, cheers! : D -bounces around too- Drop a tag to let me know you came by! haha A BIG THANK YOU TO EVERYONE. * names are reddened to allow people to find their names and read about them, since I don't think anyone woud want to read through my whole emo post. : D I'm not a devout Christian or anything, but I read this somewhere that when you pray for courage, God gives you the opportunity to have courage. Not that I pray to know to what extent are my friends wonderful, but it's time like these that I really come to appreciate how great these people are. What all of you said and did, no matter how small, I really really appreciate it. In a nutshell, yesterday was a disastor through and through. I knew I didn't fare too well, but I didn't expect to get what I got. The moment I saw Thiock's face, I knew. So with that lousy grade staring at me, I just stoned... and stoned all the way until I hear happy cries of people getting an A2, and the floodgates just opened and drowned everyone. Yup, it was then I started crying and crying and crying, I thought I would just dehydrate and die. Who knew I could retain so much water. Not good for height and weight. I could hardly remember the whole fiasco, but I distinctly remember Peiting's misguided attempt to make me laugh, but what you tried to do means a lot to me. "Why are you crying over Chinese?! Crying over your boyfriend I can understand! BUT WHY CHINESE??" I'll leave you guys to imagine. With her booming voice, half the hall probably saw me blubblering away. haha What the hell Peiting, not everyone is like you : D And the there's Yunting, who came over to cheer me up too, "Why you like that! You are supposed to be dumb and blonde and happy!" Plus, Pingfang's monologue on how Chinese is not needed in life anymore because I'm not going to write letters to anyone in Chinese anyway. So I just nodded and cried more. Then, Jasmine, Yuxuan, Zhiying came over and sat with me until my sobs subsided. But everytime my crying died down, someone would say something reaslly sweet I just started off again. Thanks to Yuxuan for just staying there, Jasmine for holding my hand while I bawled even louder, Zhiying for staying there for almost the whole time and Jas+ Zhiying for walking me out to the gate. The next day, all three of them had to endure my complaints and whinings about my dismal grades. Thanks for the listening ear. Later on, Natalie came over and tried to tell me that taking Chinese in JC isn't the end of the world because a lot of people take Chinese in JC anyway. haha That made me feel better a bit, thanks. Thanks to Yumin too, for volunteering to go to the toilet with me, but frankly, I was hardly in any state to go anywhere. Even Olivia, who just sat in front of me, not saying anything. (haha yes I can see the handphone strap bearing your name, even though I was buried in a moutainful of wanton and was in the process of making more) The thought of knowing that there is someone sitting next to me, whether silent or not, was good enough to know. And other various people who came and said few words of encouragement, like Sherry, Elaine and Arathi. "It's okay, did you get a B? I didn't do very well also". haha Sorry Sherry but my grade ain't anywhere near a B. ): and Elaine, for saying that she knew I was hardworking : D There was also the smses who came from Qingyun too. Upon realising my pedicament, the smses came fast and furious. Plus Huiwen, whom I told to leave me in peace if I looked depressed, decided to sms me instead to give me some space. Thanks for respecting what I told you, just having an sms to know that you are there anytime was enough for me. I was so touched from everything I just cried even more and used every piece of tissue thrown to me. (oh btw, the tissue was 3 ply somemore leh! Good quality eh.) Thanks to more smses the next day. From Claire and Jas, and people who asked how I was, like Elaine, Yanyee and Chenhoon. Thanks so much to (in no order of merit, all of you guys rock) Peiting, Yunting, Yuxuan, Jasmine, Zhiying, Elaine, Jolene, Qingyun, Pingfang, Claire, Sherry, Natalie, Zhixian, Huiwen, Yumin, Yanyee, Arathi, Qingyun, Chenhoon. Oh right, and Thiock hahaha, whom according to Yunting, shrugged his shoulders helplessly at some point in time during the whole melodrama before he gave me this little counselling session that Chinese really isn't all that important in life. Oh and there's even Audrey Ho, whom I don't even know personally, coming to tell me that "my friends and family won't love me any less." or something to that effect. Oh and thanks Jolene for your chocolate, which I ate during Physics lecture : D It's really sweet, like you! hahaha omg, so cheesy. I know that my plight is nothing compared to the O-levellers who are fighting to stay in RJ so I shall try to take it in my stride. I'm okay now, just give me about a week to mourn about my sucky chinese grade and I assure you that I will be fine. Crying over Chinese for a day is enough, I don't think it deserves more tears to be shed on my part. I mean, I know I tried and I know my standard should be a tad bit higher. But SHRUGS?! (oh and thanks Zhixian for offering a 20% off for tuition since her mum's a Chinese tuition teacher : D If need be, I shall let you know if the offer still stands!) Yesterday, I admit that I felt upset, disappointed and sour. I thought "Of course you guys think it's okay, you didn't get my grade! It's easier for you to say than for me to accept." But, knowing that you guys show that you care no matter how small and gesture might be, it makes things all the more better. and seriously? To hell with Chinese! Okay, not a good attitude to start another year of Chinese. I LOVE CHINESE! I'm looking forward to the day where I can look back and laugh about it. Congrats to those who did well! You probably deserved it haha. Meanwhile, I shall just look forward to H1 Chinese and hope that my class won't be changed. I shall also look forward to have a bitching session with my new Chinese classmates and together, we can bond over Chinese. But it sucks to have your whole timetable destroyed (I have a pretty cool timetable already) and uprooted from your class when you're trying to adjust. Lastly, I hope I didn't miss out anyone, since I was too busy bawling my eyes out, I didn't notice the flurry of hands on my back, shoulder, arms and all other parts of my body permissable to the touch. (oh and believe me, it's so freaking hot there in the hall I was leaking water not only from my eyes. Okay). The point of this whole post is to show that I'm really thankful to those who showed an ounce of concern and not disappear to nowhere, especially if they knew about my tragic point in life. Really, I just want to say THANK YOU and I mean it. (yes, Olly, I am freaking sincere about it!) After this whole long post, I've said what I wanted, and I'm moving Edit. haha okay this post is getting really long winded but : fann :} says: eh you okay anot ar for you hcl fann :} says:im worried for you leh cos you dont look afffected but i know you definitely are Thanks Fann : D Your concern is really appreciated. Meanwhile, I really really hope we can continue being classmates! I think if all you people are gone, I probably won't even mind changing class anymore. Again, nothing interesting happening in my life. My exciting RG life has rollercoastered into a dull monotony. Chinese "O"s coming out tomorrow! I think I'm pretty hopeless, seriously. Non-ipers took goodness knows how many subjects. I only took my HCL paper and probably won't even be able to scrape a pass. Before you guys start the eye-rolling and say "aiyar you are just being paranoid", I shall tell you that besides writing out of point for my yingyongwen (which will be guaranteed an 8/20 at most), my cloze passage scored out an amazing 10/20. Don't even get my started on my compre and compo. So yes, I shouldn't be getting my hopes up. Although I will just kill myself if I need to take Chinese again in JC. If you see me tomorrow looking super depressed, you'd know that I would have probably gotten a C or D, so don't ask. If you really want to know, ask me 10 years' time down the road when I've gotten over it! But oh well, I guess I shall just look forward to 408's outing tomorrow first. Goodness, I realised that my blogposts are getting to be more and more despondent. If not for Amazing Race later on at 11, I would have died on my bed when I got home at 7pm. My whole body aches like crazy after 50 minutes are PE. Every inch of my muscle is screaming. Getting up from the floor is like being crucio'd. Plus, the bruises from volleyball on my arms still ain't fading. haha What the hell, if this goes on, I'm just going to fail my NAPFA Diagnostic next week. So if you see me in PE remedial, again, don't ask. Yeah Ruiling, catharsis is really good for the soul : D We should do emo messaging more sometime. You know the saying "If you've got nothing good to say, don't say it"? Yeah, well. I've not been blogging lately cos I have nothing majorly good to blog about. What can I say, I miss RG loads and loads, especially 408's enthusiasm. (PINGFANG, WHEN IS THE GATHERING GOING TO COME?! ORGANISE!!) Not that my class is bad, in fact I'm pretty satisfied : D Really, really hope that noone gets out of 6K! And now, I see the importance of Mummy Express. Without Mummy Express, I've been reaching home earliest 7pm. Once I get home, i'll just die on my bed. Then, it's the vicious cycle once again. When the going gets tough later in the year, I will phone for Mummy Express once again. (We should totally just camp at Zhiying's house some day -.- ) Plus, my dad just dropped the bomb that he may be going Thailand next month for 2 years this morning when I was still half asleep in the car. Way to go Dad. I don't want him to go. Webcamming just isn't the same. To top it all off, my grandmother just got admitted to hospital and I'm really scared. With on-going CCA trials (volleyball today made my hands look diseased) and trying hard to adjust to JC life and all the shit I have to deal with now, it's kind of hard to still stay high-spirited. If life were a sine curve, I'll be the point where 180 degrees is. (haha this will test your math!) Nevertheless, had a bonding session with my new classmate Fann. Cool name no? No, she wasn't named after Fann Wong. Neither is her brother's name Ceiling. (Okay, that was her joke, not mine LOL). Point is, never attempt to walk on the overhead bridge at the bus stop behind the canteen when it's raining like crazy and there's wind. The wind will just blow all the rain in and soak you anyway. We tried to take shelter and squat down at the overhead bridge ( Imagine how stupid we looked), but we were like drenched ducks anyway. Yesterday, I decided to try the Noodle store with Sandra. Sandra ordered meepok first, then I ordered wanton mee. The aunty placed a bowl in front of me and I walked off to join the rest of the girls, who were standing there waiting for us. I stared down at my bowl and something just looked disturbingly wrong. My bowl of noodles had no wanton inside, and the noodles were fat.. like meepok. But whatever, I eat anything anyway. But when I turned back, I saw the aunty gesticulating wildly to me, with a very amused Sandra still waiting at the stall. I had to walk all the way back to the front. Half the queue, Sandra, the aunty and everyone who saw my ridiculous deed was laughing at me. I know right, I am just so cool. I just viewed the powerpoint Pingfang made and mailed to the class and omg, it's so sweet I freaking teared. I've been receiving many christmas cards (yeah, most came kind of late) and reading them always brought a smile to myface. I miss you guys! First day of school. Enough said. I'm freaking tired to even blog anymore, but I just have to blog about this cos I think it's hilarious. My dad has outdone himself in the parental department, "acting out of concern". He decided to message me in the middle of orientation. Dad: Are they any cute guys in your school? hahahah When i saw this I nearly fainted. I didn't even know "cute guy" was in his vocabularly. So I replied him, "Not as handsome as you." Then he smsed back, "But of course! I'm your Daddy!" haha Daddy dearest, you're the cutest guy in my life okay -.- HAPPY NEW YEAR! Well, I bloghopped and most people had really insightful posts about 2007 and their hopes, wishes, dreams for 2008. But I shan't do it, cos I just cannot be bothered and everyone will be bored reading how I screwed up 2007 and how my new year resolution is to be a mugger (HELLO PINGFANG, MY MUGGING PARTNER HAHA). But anyway, here's to wishing everyone A HAPPY NEW YEAR! We're starting school tomorrow, ain't it exciting??? My parents and brother just came back from my relatives' house for a countdown, which I missed because of 408's gathering. (AW, YOU GUYS SHOULD BE HONOURED) Plus, I hobbled all the way from Orchard to City Hall (fine, I took a train) because of lousy shoes. My mum is in a freaking good mood today, or at least, just now. She just came in to shake my hand to wish me "HAPPY NEW YEAR!". I did not have any inclination for any hand shaking because I think shaking my mum's hand of all people is a lame thing to do when I'm in my pajamas and in front of the com, feeling melancholic that 2008 just arrived. But I still shook her hand anyway. -.- Yay to 2008! I shall try to cram my mind with positive thoughts! : DD |